wrong man.

It really hurts me a lot to know that you had lie to me. That you had admitted that you had a special someone in your life. It really made me sad and depressed, I think for 2 days. You tend to forget me and told me that we cannot see each other because your girl-friend was hurt knowing that we had a friendly date last Wednesday, even though she is still in troubles with her ex boyfriend.

And I was so stupid because I think I fell for you, we only met for only 4 days and what am I feeling? Is this is love of I only like you. D*mn. But I still miss you. I cried yesterday because I am used texting you if we have free time, laughed at your jokes and had goosebumps if you said something sweet. I hope you realize that I am here, still waiting for a man that can sweep off my feet and I thought it was you but I was wrong.

I think I should move on and forget you before I lose control of falling for you.

confuse

Dear Someone,

I am really sorry for causing you so much pain. I really do miss you and love you but it just that I or were not that happy anymore not like before. I hope you do understand what I am going to do with my life. I just want to find the old me, the happy and easy going gal that you had met before.

stressful

It is almost a month now before my exam in IELTS and I am not ready yet. How I wish I can turn back time and be serious in my studies especially in English subject, but I think it is never too late for me to be an excellent English speaker someday.

Also, it had been a stressful week to me because me and my boyfriend are always fighting for some small things and in the end I just want to be alone for me to have time to myself, for me to think of the best way to make things better for us. I am hoping for the both of us to be happy and contended. I need to be separate to him for me think and if someday I will return to him, I will just love him with my whole heart and soul. cheesy? yes indeed.

a year of blissfulness

it's been a year and 2 dayss for us, and I'm still very happyin our anniversary. Eventhough it is very simple yet it is very memorable for us. We celebrated our first anniversary in MOA while watching fireworks and eating in ice bergs. It is only a simple celebration, but what is important for me is that I celebrated it with my mahal. :)

Mad

I got irritated to my boyfriend because i was going to help them re-insert the I.V but when i went to their station, no one has prepared the things that i will be using. And then when we got there, i needed a splint so that the IVF won't dislodge again, i told him to get a splint in ER but because he was lazy to go there , he gave me splint for adult. I got mad and went down to ER to get one. When i came back, no one assist me in inserting the IV, and because I'm a bad girl, i went down in ER ans never insert that IV again.

It's already 6am and I am waiting for him, and when I saw him I got irritated again to his face. I walk home alone and when i get a glance at my back, there he is, trying to walk fast to talk to me and then he saw me at the tricycle and I looked at him madly and cuts my eyes on him.

happy 8th

Happy 8th monthsary mahal :) I know its been really tough to have me as your girlfriend, because I easily get mad at you and always fight with you even in a smallest details. Thank you for loving me and always understanding my Bad attitude. LOVE YOU FOREVER. *kiss*

eight monthsary

Hello there BABES :) I know you cannot read this entry and you don't know about this blog so it is okay for me to tell to others what I love about you.

You are always there for me whenever I'm lonely. You're always there for me when I'm happy and always there for me to make me smile and always there for me to love me. Thank you babes for having you in my life, you are the one that I am wishing for a long time.

Even though you are childish, immature and had a messy bedroom. I will always love you for what you are.

Eight months and still counting. Hope it will last forever my dear :) I love you and I always will.

7th

happy 7th Monthsary my loves. So happy that I have found him, he makes my life so happy :) I love you mahal. mwah

A new day has come

I just started my new blog today. It is the new and improved me. Anyways, I have colds and I'm not feeling well. I hate this feeling, I just wish my colds will be gone. Been at work last night and it was very toxic night for me, first I was sick and I can't interview because my voice is like a disaster and second I am not feeling well. Thanks to Glaiza, she understand my situation and help me through the whole night.

Me and my boy toy are not in good terms, because last night his patient have decided to withdraw the mechanical ventilator and that is called mercy killing. He was so exhausted last night and I do not help him. Even though he didn't say a word to me but I can feel in his action that he was mad at me. don't know what to do.

And now I'm awake and still not feeling well. I just finished eating my brunch (sinampalukang manok) and it's very delicious.

Hope that my day will be happy and productive. I need extra cash for my neccessities, so please bear with me. haha :) till next time.